und du sagst, du wolltest immer raus hier...

*drunk*

I haz ABITUR.
(Well, technically I don't, since there's still a couple of weeks of school, some minor exams and an oral exam in June. But the statement still sounds amazing.)

So after being practically dead for a couple of weeks, abandoning everyone, be it online or be it in real life, I've made it today. This week was horrible with first History on wednesday and then English today, but whatever, it's over.
(And can you believe that the text we had to work with in English was talking about DRAMATIC IRONY?! How the hell am I supposed to concentrate on, like, anything, when they are talking about DRAMATIC IRONY? Clearly this exam was not created to be taken by an Eskimo Whore.)
Miraculously I've managed to finish everything without major catastrophes and feel like the results will probably be decent. Not that it matters at the moment, since we won't know until June when FOUR people will have corrected them. Oh German bureaucracy, how do I love thee.

And now I have some major catching-up to do on all the fandom-related stuff. That's going to be some busy days, filled with IMPORTANT STUFF.
*cuddles everyone silly* So glad to be back!

This is without doubt going to be the most useless post of the year. I really don't have anything to tell, but I need to get away from studying for a sec or two.

So, I'm fine, alive and healthy. Staying away from the computer is working out a lot better than I had suspected it would before.

I'm just coming up for air in between the Third Reich, the Cold War, the multiple ways of how "Medea" by Christa Wolf is actually a discussion of German Democratic Republic vs. Federal Republic of Germany, Georg Büchner as an opponent to Weimar Classicism and poems written by authors in exile. All these subjects may or may not be very interesting on their own but at the moment I'm kind of sick and tired.
And turns out there's actually stuff to do in preparation for English concerning the theme "individual and society", which we seem to have talked about for quite a while last year, only I don't remember. And I'm not all that interested either. But my teacher said I could stay away from the grammar lessons, I take that as a good sign.
And I might turn into a regular smoker soonish to compensate my stress level, which is NOT good.

In other news I don't get to spend any time with my friends or my boyfriend, there's still lots of snow outside and I hardly watch Show or any TV for that matter. But I'm participating in the voting-madness every chance I get. Sparkly AWZ-people totally have to win this.

And I have lots of wonderful things to look forward to once the madness is over. I booked a trip to Berlin in April, one to Denmark in June when EVERYTHING is done. Concert tickets, books that I've really wanted to read for a long time... It's going to be awesome. Just five more weeks... Surely that's doable.

*runs off again*

Okay, it feels like I've been away from the computer for so long it's not even funny anymore. I have been sneaking in about every two days to read my emails and stuff, but that doesn't really count.
Real life in general and school in particular are being demanding bitches and there is no way it's going to get any better until the end of March! So see you lovely people in April. I'm just sneaking in right now and should actually be studying, but there's only so much studying one can do. Anyway, I won't be able to update regularly for the next couple of weeks, too much German, too much history. (Haven't figured out how to study for English yet, guess I could update my journal every once in a while and tell myself was helpful...) But I might be commenting from time to time and I'm definitely going to read and follow the message boards silently.

In other news -- I've been tagged! Whatever that means!



A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.

B. Tag seven people to do the same.

C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".


I can't tag anyone, everyone's already been tagged and answered more interestingly than I probably will. Besides, I don't even know how tagging works. *hangs head in shame*

1) I'm the most useless person ever when it comes to technical stuff. I can't download or install anything on my computer without the helpful assistance of my father who is for some reason a wizard with these things and thinks I'm making fun of him, because it's beyond him to understand how someone can NOT get these right away. It takes me ages to get used to new software and I still don't know how to tag people. :D

2) Tidy rooms confuse me. This seems to be an inherited thing, everyone in my family is incapable of not being messy and everyone likes things a bit (or a bit more) chaotic as well.

3) I'm constantly having a to-do-list but I'm never motivated enough to actually do the things on it. Which is the worst thing you can do, because that way you're always aware of everything you still have to do and are constantly frustrated with yourself because you still don't do anything about it.

4) I hate to make phone calls when I know more people with the same last name live there, who also answer the phone just saying their last name. For some reason I find it vastly embarrassing not to know who I'm talking to. And I have two friends who are twins and have the exact same voice and answer the phone exactly the same way. I never call them.

5) I've been a vegetarian for years now and I am extremely tired of people being intolerant about it. Why is it even something that I need approval or permission for to decide NOT to eat dead animals? I never quite got that.

6) I hate it when people have a strong German accent when speaking English. Unfortunately I have one myself, which annoys me big time. On the other hand I can find people extremely sexy just due to their accents. Best example for that is probably Luke Pritchard, singer of The Kooks.

7) If you want to really infuriate me, all you have to do is interrupt someone who is talking. It doesn't even have to be me, it can be anyone. I think it's the most rude and disrespectful thing to do.

So since I've chosen history as one of my main subjects at school, we do a lot of things that aren't necessarily part of normal class, like, I don't know, study trips, going to museums and stuff.

And since we're about to revise everything connected to the Third Reich, my teacher organised an excursion to the Neuengamme concentration camp, which is a memorial now. Obviously I think that's a good thing to do, because knowing and remembering what happened in Nazi Germany is the essential thing to avert it ever happens again. I also still feel like being German gives you the responsibility to deal with the topic in an extremely cautious and sensitive way.

Unfortunately our guide there didn't seem to agree.
After walking around in the cold and the snow for three hours, my teacher suggested to go inside and have a look at the exhibition instead, because everyone was shivering, to which that woman replied "Also bitte, was einen nicht umbringt macht einen nur härter! Aber naja, jedem das seine!" ("Oh please, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! But fine, to each his own!" or something similar).
I can't even explain how you can fuck up that much in only two sentences. I guess the first one is obvious - to say "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" at a place where people had to work 14 hours a day, with hardly anything to eat until they died, freezing or starving, is about the worst thing you can do. And as if that isn't enough "Jedem das Seine" is also the phrase that was placed over the entrance of the Buchenwald concentration camp. (In that case probably meaning "Everyone gets what he deserves.")

Now can a person working at a place like that really be that dumb and not notice what she's saying? I don't think so.
How can she still be working there? It's rather shocking, actually.